I told you in a previous post that I would explain why the word Love is a peculiar one for God to have me focus on this year. In all honesty, loving is one of the hardest things for me to do. I don’t like sharing that. I know that coldness is not attractive to others. Most don’t like baring their feelings – I don’t like baring my lack of them! I have to make myself care. I have to mentally remind myself to think of others. I thank God every day that love is a choice, more than just a feeling; because if it was a feeling I’d be in trouble. I can count on two hands the people that I actually feel love for.
Most don’t like baring their feelings – I don’t like baring my lack of them!
I am so beyond eternally grateful that God is Love, and that the Holy Spirit has love as one of its fruits….that as I draw nearer to Him and have more of His outpouring on my life, I will have love that is not of myself. This has been my secret. I’ve learned to read and perceive when people need to talk, when people need a hug, when people need help, and I act on it, even though I rarely feel the compassion that correlates to it. But I have found, as I have grown closer to my Jesus, and observed the growth of my heart in the Spirit, that often I will feel the love after I have committed the action, almost like a reward for obedience. Can I tell you…that’s amazing. To feel love after I have acted for love. Why? Because it is so obviously not of myself. When it comes, it is so clearly from Someone else (hmmm…I wonder who?), the Love incarnate. Feeling that other-worldly love fills my soul with joy at how amazing He is and how blessed I am.
…amazing….to feel love after I have acted for love. Why? Because it is so obviously not of myself.
I must choose to act in love towards my God and others if I am to live in obedience to Him, Matthew 22. But how gloriously overwhelming that He takes over and pours the love on through?